Subjectivity

There are two groups of people. They are the only people who exist on this planet. One group is outside in the open, sitting in a park ground. Another group is sitting in a completely darkened room, watching a day long horror movie. They meet after one day to talk about what happened in the last 24 hours.

First Group in the Park: We were having a good time at the park until it started raining and we had to huddle under a tree for shelter.

Second Group: Rain? There is no evidence of rain. The ground is dry. The sky is clear.

First Group: It did rain. And after that there was a rainbow.

Second Group: We disagree. We did not observe the rain. There was neither rain nor was there a rainbow.

Question: Is existence only possible by the act of observation?

Forbidden Friendship

For some reason this music seems to pacify-soothe-placate-control my anger

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pM0sOrwocCI&feature=related

What is going on?

Each time I start to write something, I feel like I am missing an essential ingredient. I am unable to understand what it is. I am not going to attempt to post something when I don't feel right about it. Let me wait for some more time and figure out what exactly is missing. Until then, this space will be without a post. This is really sad. I have so much time but no will to write.

The semantics of Duality

The concept of duality is an ingrained thought in us. We can seldom go outside the matrix of opposites. To every aspect described, there is a contra. So, what exactly is duality? This is a question I have asked myself a lot lately. It is something I strive to understand, because of the fundamental position it occupies in the way man has come to see everything. Think about it.

Man and nature; mind and body; spirit and man; self and man; good and bad; pleasure and pain; knowledge and ignorance; system and environment. The list goes on. In fact it is endless. Take any aspect and you can always create its complement. In my thoughts about duality, I have come to see there is a bias in the way we see things. When we refer to a pair of opposites, our thoughts compress it into a binary logic. That either something is present or it is absent. There is no middle ground. The deterministic view of things. The Newtonian way of understanding. The world at the scale we see.

But is the world 'organized' as such? Personally, I am beginning to think the whole idea is flawed at its core. My reason for such an argument is ground on the presumption that duality is a simplified view of a more fuzzy world. We don't deal with 0 and 1 in reality. We have a spectrum ranging from 0 to 1 passing through everything in between. There is a continuum. The problem of duality is centred in the act of communication and is not a reality in itself.

Take the case of an important human emotion, viz. happiness. Our intuitive understanding of such a feeling is binary. When I say I am happy, it precludes the possibility that I am sad. That is because we see happiness and sadness as two binary states. But if such a case were true, then what is the meaning adjectival qualifiers like very happy, delighted etc. Certainly they do denote a greater or lesser happiness. Another duality? This would only result in an endless regress.

What I want to say is that when we deal with duality, there is a degree associated with it. For eg. Happiness is not merely a state. It is a state with a degree or extent. Happiness then is not a pure quality. It is rather an admixture where the quality of 'happy' is more than 'sad'. I might then go on to add that when we are neither happy nor sad, it is a case where the two qualities are in equal proportion. The state of indifference.

The key idea here is that there is no boundary in duality. The perception of duality is the passage of the aspect from preponderance in one end of the spectrum to the other side. Both qualities exist at all times nonetheless.

Insanity attacks :|

Causality, Spontaneity, Evolution and Interdependence.... i am going in circles now :(

This is driving me crazy. It's official. In the event of my madness turning into a chronic disease, i hereby attribute the result to the Universe (if it exists), to myself (if it were my dream), to the lord (if it were it's dream), to the void (if nothing exists)

To the Unknown Woman

there is this connection with you,
i've not felt even with the closest few,
the freshness of the morning dew,
reminds me each day of you

there is a mystery surrounding you,
everytime, it's something totally new,
i've tried hard to think it through,
but it remains an unsolved clue

there is a certain charm 'bout you,
it shakes me up, out of the blue,
i'm frozen, i know not what to do,
do i've to say anymore, take the cue

i've wanted to say this all along,
when you're with me, i'm brave and strong,
without you, i'm like a lyric without a song,
for your love, i shall wait forever, eternity long

Universal Confusions

I am going insane. It has to do with this damn universe. Seriously. It taunts me with impossibilities. It makes me see inherent contradictions in its existence. And yet, here I am, typing out mumbo jumbo about it. I cannot sleep properly. My head spins trying to figure out what stuff this universe is made of. Cosmology has the answers. But the problem lies in asking the right questions. And I am stuck here. What do I ask? What is it I want to know?

Is it how big is the Universe? The Universe can be as big as you want it to be. Multi-verses stacked upon a solo universe floating in vacuum. The ad infinitum progression of universes to perpetuity. Who can ascertain if the Universe (i.e. the mother of all multiverses) is finite or not?

What exists on the other side of the point-sized Universe at big bang? Does the other side have a meaning at all.

Where did it all begin? Did it begin at all? Is there an 'it' in the first place?

There must be some way all the contradictions are reconciled in an underlying substratum. The Ouroboros keeps frequenting me. It is floating in my mind. The head trying to bite of its tail and complete a cycle.

Suddenly the question 'why' seems to be a totally wrong question to ask. Causality is at the scale of the Universe where Newton rules. In Einstein's world, does 'why' have a meaning? What happens when the Universe has an Einstein world size and a Newton world density.The head meets the tail. The beginning meets the end and everything goes haywire.

What is space? Is it a positive entity? Or is it nothingness. But then what is nothingness. Is nothingness infinite. Then again, another contradiction.

How do i frame the right question? Do words retain their meaning in those questions? I don't know what to ask. All I am left with is silence. I am in awe. I live in an Universe which defies imposition of any kind of rule over its existence. I can hear it say, "I am here to break all the rules you pesky humans make. You can never figure me out. Good luck with that."